What is it Lord that I am not seeing?….. The struggle is too great for me alone……….
The American Great Depression brought down a storm too heavy at times for Grandma Maja to bear alone. Her dead husband (dying in 1932) was no longer at her side to lift her up. She was a widow now with 3 small children. Survival was on her lonely and grieving shoulders.
Two Swedish friends: Axel and Svea Soderlund came to Maja’s rescue helping with the children as Maja went off to all night nursing assignments 7 days a week.
In my book, My Maja A Grandson’s tribute I explain that Maja had two nervous breakdowns. Despite her courage and dedication to live up to her own high expectations she broke.
If you have a moment, this Amazing song and Swedish music so beautifully expresses the anguish and torment I sense broke Maja’s heart.
In the days of losing her mind and her children.
In the days leading to her suicide decision.
The music moved my heart to tears as Maja reaches out to God as the strain is too great. Only God can deliver her.
A second song that speaks to Maja’s struggle: